Amanda

after so long

Thursday, May 20, 2010 - 5:35 PM

After so long finally post sumthing up again lol.... Thank to ting told mi iPhone can post blog, at least I can type down the thing that I could say out.. Ytd meet ric, seem so stranger... Quite weird not use to, but seen him still fine, 我就放心了。 Again my own problem le, dunno where to go, as I Noe I can't carry on stand in the middle n do nothing cuz sooner or later there were b problem cuming out again... Ric was a nice person but he gamble so I change my mind set as he is bad, but he change to a person that nvr gamble soccer n stuff but y I can't accept? Is it cuz my heart is nt there? Or Im jus scare alone back lyk last time or mayb tried of loving.... Some time I find myself veri yi lai ah dan, everything oso go find MSG him, call him, sumtime find that y today were become lyk tat, if there wasn't a gala lunch, if there wasn't a birthday celebration, if wasn't a msn starting chat, guess everything were b diff ba, altot ah dan was reali a caring man but still dunno y I couldn't accept him mayb becoz he too smart that I may drop in a dark hole ba... But wun deny the truth, he reali reali care for mi alot recently n was willing to put everything at my point first his second, that reali touch but I jus dunno haha, 贱女人吧。 Haiz early in the morning gt to go work sian... Hope I can finish today work by time to send to client... Haiz dunno how to shade the box to look mre 3d.... Jialat.... Hope everyone is doing fine n hope I could found my key... I lost my key this morning but was rushing out so no choice gt to hack care n leave hus without a key...